bumming around

Yup, I just had the luxury of time to bum around for about 3 days! I had been used to a hectic schedule and being able to bum around that long was a pleasant change! What I enjoyed most about my "vacation" was that I was able to do something I hadn't done for quite some time now -- simply being in commune with myself.
For a change, I opted to stay home instead of choosing to hang out with my friends, which I usually do when I have time to do so. I read books and magazines that had been stacked up on my cabinet for quite a while (most of which were practically covered with dust.... eeew!). I went over history and economics books among others (with this, I meant, those that dealt with less "intellectual" but nonetheless "controversial" topics... hehe). Not to mention magazines that talked about flirting, clothes, sexual gratification, and... well, I guess you get the idea! I cleaned my room (well, this part's easier written than done! (hmmm... did I say this blog would be about bumming around????). I was also able to organize my class notes (which shouldn't be difficult at all, if only I was not an OC!) . I finally had my "EVERYTHING NOTEBOOK" done (the most effortless way I could think of to be organized without even trying). And, I was able to start that short story I had long planned to do but wasn't able to do until then.

Hmmm, how I wish I could afford to bum around... again!

bataan escapade...

over the weekend, i went to bataan w/ friends... we left last friday and went home last sunday... we traveled by bus... the trip going there was quite short... say, less than 2 hours... we had to tke another ride, this time a jeepney, to the relatives of cyrus(one who knows about bataan)... we stayed there for a night... the place was literally up the mountain... it took us at least 45mins to go there from the terminal... when we woke up, we left his relatives to go to the beach... we had a hard time finding one that would suit our budget... the first two were not that practical... tgood thing we settled for the third resort... was a lot cheaper than the frist two... then we swam all throughout the day... we drank alcohol after dinner and had videoke... was kinda tipsy then... hehehe...on the nest day, we rented a boat to tour us... then we packed our bags and went home... was a very tiring escapade... had no sleep.... i wanted to maximize my stay there, so opted not to sleep much... ending, was very hagard.... hehehe.... oh, by the way, we did tke a lot of pictures (or should i say, i took a lot!!!) hehehe....

bataan pictures can be seen @ http://share.shutterfly.com/action/share/view?i=EeAuGLJk2aN3sw&open=1&x=1&sm=1&sl=0

just shoot me.... hehehe

after work, i went w/ my officemates to the mall to buy some xmas decors... then we ate... after eating, we went all home... since there was a strike for jeepneys, i walked from ayala to evangelista!!! bad trip!!! anyway, i couldnt sleep after reaching hom, though i was so tired... i just waited for the time me and an old friend agreed that we would meet... we would be playing badminton then.... i was kinda thinking if i would still come because i hadnt got any sleep... anyway, i still went to our meeting place... the people, whom i played w/, were all so good... after playing b/w 8:30pm-12mn, we ate tapsi somwer in mkti... then we headed hom... since the time we were dropped off was almost 2am, there were limited jeepneys... so from pasong tamo, i then walked to evangelista... again... hehehe... then i slept..... my mom woke me up this morning because of a phone call... lenard was the one who called, confriming our plan to go somwer far form the city... to relax and unwind.... we would be goin to bataan...

after the long wait....

came to the office late... hehehe... learned that the billboard wasnt that big... but still it was a biilboard, ryt??? hehehe... havent seen it still, though.... after office, went to the mall w/ my officemate to meet another one to go w/ him to buy some stuff for the office - xmas decors.... waited long.... was trying to reach him, but all my officemate heard was all rings.... we decided to eat while waiting... but the atm was busted... i couldnt access... and i had no money for food.... finally, we decided to go hom instead.....

Saturday Get-Away

I was at Matabungkay last Saturday.
I attended a writing workshop with three distinguished writers as panelists, including Palanca Hall of Famer and Liwayway editor-in-chief Rey Duque and Dr. Landicho, who was recently recognized as UP professor emeritus. The participants in the said event (including me, of course!) are writers in a recently published book entitled “30 Piling Kuwento sa Taong 2003” – a compilation of “selected” (duh!) stories published in last year’s issues of Liwayway.
We, er, dissected three stories. The panelists preferred to call this part “pointing at the weak points and giving constructive criticisms”. But, I still think dissected is a more truthful term…
It might had been a “painful” experience for the writers of those three stories. One even cried –and I mean, literally- as her masterpiece was scrutinized, without even the tiniest detail spared. But, for most (if not for all) of the participants, it was indeed a learning encounter, an event that every writer should go through.
Another highlight of the event was the formal launching of KATINIG (Samahan ng mga Bagong Manunulat) and I was appointed as part of the interim board of directors.
After that, we were free to enjoy the beach as much as we want to. However, I was the only one among the ladies, who opted for a swim (or should I say “plunge” as I didn’t really know how to swim…). But, I didn’t mind if that meant going after the waves by myself. Last Saturday was just too beautiful to be missed…
-Rojan-

Billboard!!!

got a restful long weekend (i did?! hehehe)... got up from bed kinda late, 'coz i was still sleepy... we just started on our second shift for this week and the next... even i was still sleepy, my aura was different... i was feeling not so bad, unlike the usual days when i go to work... why? i also didnt know... hehehe... my officemates also noticed that i was kinda different when they saw me... they said, i was different, i "looked good", not the typical hagard rl they usually see... hehehe... oh, rojan was in different shift... she would be on the first shift for the whole 2nd sem, i guess...

she told me 'bt the billboard she saw when she was on her way to work while we were havin breakfast... at first she didnt noticed, but when she realized that the billboard she saw was from AMA along edsa, she tried to looked at it again, and tried to figure out if that was the one i was pertaining to in my stroies... she was then too far to recognize who it was.... anyway, she just texted and confirmed that that was the billboard i was pertaining to... i smiled after reading her confirmation... a big one... hehehe... i didnt expect that it would be this soon that the project would materialized... i based my assumption based on the last project, which took 6 months... that long... so, since billboard is at its place, i believe i would be havin my end soon.... hopefully, before xmas... hehehe.... : )

actually, i was planning to go to the agency after my shift, to get some important documents and inquire about something re the project... was still not sure though... but since rojan had confirmed, i would be goin there today... hehehe...

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when i went to get the contracts, it took the person i looked for a while before she gave me what i needed... she had lost one of the contracts... she had to furnish another one.... grrrr.... anyway, the dough was agreed (by my agency and the client) to be given after 30 days (i just hop so!!! haaaay...)... then, they asked me to do another thingy for them... wasnt ready for it, but i still did it... but unfortunately, it didnt function as they expected!!! hehehe...

couldn't be reached...

over the weekend, the first two days i had no phone, contacts from friends were so difficult..... some still doesnt know i lost my phone, and probly were trying to reach me then... some, whom i gave my landline, had also difficulty... 'coz i seldom entertain calls when m alseep.... plus my family were't here last sunday, so there was no one who would answer the phone if ever(since i was asleep).... haaaay....
yesterday, my family and i went to manila memorial to visit my papa... they prayed... then we ate at lola idang's (a famous place to eat in paranaque)... then we went home 'coz my mama had another place to go w/ my other relatives... well... i decided, for the last minute, to come w/ them... it was d bday of a distant relative..... we didnt stay long..... we just ate, then left in a few.... hehehe...

STUPIDITY...

I LOST MY PHONE!!!!!!! SOBRANG BAD TRIP!!!!!!
during lunch at the office, we ate at chowking buendia.... after eating, we went back riding a cab... wen we were about to go up to our floor, i then realized that my phone wasnt in my left pocket(where i always put my cel)..... we tried to retrieve it by calling it... but it just always rang... until after our shift, it couldnt be contacted.... haaaaay.....







haaaaay......

nge nge na naman!!!

after our shift at 4am, we decided not to go hom yet... we were supposed to go to cable car (pasay road) to have a drink of their mud slide... but we ended up goin to digi cafe because some of our officemates would be joining us after their shift at 7am(since cable car would be until 5am)... we arrived at digi shot some pool, and had a drink of a combination of colt ice beer and a cocktail called 'tequila sunrise' (my first time to taste... hehehe)... after exhausting ourselves from billiards, we decided to play darts, unfortunately, the person who convinced us to do so needed to go then... we ended up eating a full meal, not just an ordinary breakfast... hehehe.... our other officemates arrived late... they ate breakfast, while we wer waiting (still) for them to finish... while waiting, an officemate and i got another coctail called 'sex on the beach' (another newbie for me!!! hehehe)... that tasted good, but wasnt that strong... after eating, we then started singin... and of course, drinking again... this time pure beer.... hehehe... i was really tired then so i decided to go ahead... and since they would not be reporting to work later.... hehehe.... oh, by the way, i was trying to remember the date the last time i went to digi.... funny.. i forgot... hehehe.. must had been a long time.... hehehe....

haaay.... m just so low.... i dont know y... but i m...

what's new??? same old self...???

in the middle of our shift, it came across my mind my pessimistic self... i gauged how pessimistic i am towards things... I AM... BIG TIME... i actually tried to imagine myself as changin myself to being optimistic... well, it would be a different me... but a better me..... i decided to start to change.... i know its hard, but i have to.... to become a better "personality" (as per rojan... hehehe)..... but as i write now, i cant help but think if i really could do it (i mean, i can but would i be successful?) considering some factors that triggers me to be such???

as i was seated here in front of my pc from 4:45am, i couldnt think of anything to write... but as i heard my mom w/ her daily homily, but now its different, i knew wat to write... i dint like what she said... and before that incident, she kinda told me something also, which i didnt like... which, made me thought again of my pessimistic self..... actually, i had not finished thinking.... havent resolved it.... couldnt weigh things over.... as of now, i m still who and what i am... i still am my old same self.... haaaay....

waaaaaaaa!!!!! i hate to think!!!! i hate to feel what m feeling now!!!! not only w/ wat ive written, but w/ OTHERS as well!!!

On RL's bestFUCK...

Fragments

The creator of this blog is a helluva writer.

work again!!!

it was my "first day" of work... my officemates were happy(hope i wasnt assuming... hehehe) to see me... they were also shocked w/ my hair do... i fixed my hair like i fixed it before my papa's interment... my hair was like spiked... hehhehe... nothing special w/ this day, actually... hehehe... re my work, i was used to not doin anything for the past few days... so i was kinda wore-off as early as i started working... oh! i also plotted my vacation leaves... my leaves were not consecutively plotted...

still trying to check my mails every now and then for a possible reply.... haaay....

m kinda stressed out big time w/ all that has been happening w/ my life!!! i need a break!!!

last farewell...

last sunday, i went to bed at around 7am and had to wake up at 10am to prepare for my papa's burial. but i woke up late, it was 11:30 i guess... when i arrived at the funeral hom, there were lots of people already, waiting to transfer my papa's remains to the funeral car, for the mass at the church at 2pm... we started walking by quarter to 2pm to the church... then after the mass, i was called to say my speech... i hesitated to go in front, 'coz my sister and i agreed that id be doin the speech and she would be reading it... ayway, i stil was the one who spoke.... was so hard to speak 'coz i couldnt stop my tears from flowing... the reason also why i stood up there for the speech was to impart what i really wanna say re my papa and i's realationship... it wasnt in the speech i made (well, actually my bestFUCK did most of the work)'coz as i said my sister was supposed to read it... i didnt want my piece to be held forever.... so i told them... i also didnt want to regret for not standing up there as the eldest child and speak in behalf of my family... actually, i had not said everything i wanted... i forgot some of it... the best ones...
from the church, we went to manila memorial where he would be buried... we walked from the entrance until to the spot where my father would be placed last... that time was very emotional for us... it was hard to say goodbye to papa... especially when the time had come to seal the coffin under the ground... i held papa's hand before they sealed it... oh, i also included the paper where i wrote the speech when i threw the flower...
all throughout the event mama cried... the least that i thought i could do was to be by her side... i tried not to cry... to show that i was strong.... for my mama at least... but my tears were flowing then... but i still managed to held back... that was on the way to the church and on the way to the spot where my papa is now buried.....
i tried to bring out all my tears as i was there for the last glance of my papa... but i wasnt successful... nevertheless, at least i tried to make up w/ papa....'coz i wanted to get rid all the bitterness in me then... i wanted to put an end to our issue... i just hope papa got my message.... was happy from then on... mas magaan ang pakiramdam....

after the burial we went to eat merienda at mcdo, a treat by my tito and tita for their bday... then we went to paranaque to my tita's place for dinner... we stayed there until dawn... the reason why i slept the whole day.. and only now that i had the time to write this...

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was checkin my mails... was happy for the mails i got...... and was excited to reply back....
but...... got suspicious w/ what ive seen.... they made me think of negative things.... m i just paranoid or what???
grrrr.... i hate this feeling...... grrrr.............

oh, i forgot... i went out w/ ritz for dinner last nyt... after dinner, we parted ways and headed home... i tripped... i walked the stretch of pasay road til i reached evangelista... hehehe... from there i took a jeepney and was headed hom... suddenly, i felt the urge not to go hom ryt away... so went to mini stop and bought some snacks... i also bought my family pasalubong... then i walked hom.... again... hehehe

Keeping my fingers crossed

Yesterday was a bad hair day.
I attended my accounting class straight from work where we were given a special “treat” by our teacher – a quiz on income statements, statements of owner’s equity, and well, the type of test one wouldn’t want to have at 7 o’clock in the morning. My seatmate (whom I just met that day) “compared” her notes with mine and with two more from our row. All three of them had the same answers and I was persuaded to change mine. Almost. When I checked out the correct answers with our teacher, I was thankful that I wasn’t a firm believer of the popular notion that “two heads are better than one.” At least, not all the time.
I attended another class before I headed home to have lunch, only to discover that I had something to do, which I apparently missed out during the entire registration period. Thus, the seemingly endless trips to AIT, back home, to the infirmary, to AIT again, then to UP OUR (where I had to wait amid the long queues), and finally, back home to doze off for 2 ½ hours, then back to work again. Whew!
The end result? Absences in two of my majors (considering it’s just the 2nd week of classes!) and an unfinished agenda to be continued next week (now, that’s the worse part of it ‘coz I have a feeling that is the “bloodier” part!).
Yesterday was really a bad hair day.
I have an idea that today is going to be the same. Hopefully not...
-Rojan-

when words speak LOUD enough

I was at the funeral of RL's dad last Sunday.
After the mass, RL was asked to give a eulogy for his father. When we -Ritz, Lenard, and I-spent a night at his dad's wake RL expressed his dislike to do so on. But he went away with it just the same.
He had something like a script with him and though I wasn't able to read whatever was written there, I could readily point out, which part was "scripted" and which wasn't.
There was just that “very RL” portion. Purporting to be unaffected by the gloomy atmosphere, he was doing his best to maintaining his composure. Should I hadn't known RL, I would think that he was just trying to be strong for his family. Probably yes. But, it wasn't just that.
He had (almost) always been ambivalent with showing his emotions. We had been friends for quite some time now and if I didn't know how to ask the right questions, I wouldn't have known him that much.
Nevertheless, I was touched by the impromptu part of his speech. There in front of me was a man hiding whatever emotion contained in him. But, his words cheated on him. All that he was trying to conceal before he opened his mouth was instantly revealed.
And, yes, I was brought into tears. His words brought me into tears...
-Rojan-

riscuity attacks...

last nyt lenard, rojan, and ritz were w/ me until this morning... they joined me at the wake because i was the only one who stayed awake in my family.... was very thankful for them.... it was my first time to hav a sleep at the wake because i was witing for my officemates in the morning after their shift... i didnt expect that most of them would come... was happy then....
i opened some of my stuff in the net and learned something... .sad..... hope i was just thinking wrong..... :(
anyway, got to hit the sack... m sooo sleepy... got a big nyt ahead of me.... again....

a not-so-tiring day...

just got hom from the wake... my brother and i were the ones who stayed for the wake for the evening... was very sleepy coz i really lack sleep.... when my brother fell asleep, i was the only one left awake.... i was torn if id apporach my papa, coz until now(considering this was the 4th day of the wake, i havent seen my papa inside the coffin!)... was nervous and afraid... i thought of morbid things(silly me!)... i still ended up not seeing him........ anyway, as i saw somthing on my personal mails, a smile came across my face.... i felt happy........

on the 3rd day...

i only had a few hours of sleep... i got up early and prepared for my racket despite of the restless sleep... honestly, i was kinda disturbed when i was trying to sleep because i was the only one in the house... my other siblings slept at the wake... anyway, my racket was finished in less than 3-4 hours, i guess... i kinda enjoyed that racket... because maybe it was also easy for me.... after the racket, i went to the wake and entertained some of the people..... stayed there for hours... i was sooo sleepy and exhausted, so i excused myself and would be sleeping for a few... its just now that i had the time to use the computer and check my mails and all after a long day... so i took this opportunity to write something litghter.... is it lighter? hehehe... it doesnt look like.... i tried, though.... hehehe....

A Silent Elegy

by Rojan

What could be worse???

yesterday.... when i woke up to take a bath and go dressed for a meeting after lunch, i heard a commotion... at first, i thought there was just a fight b/w my aunts (a not-so-unusual thing for them), but when i heard my mama screamed, actually more of a moan, i was alarmed... it was my papa..... he got his 3rd heart attack.... as they rushed him to the nearest hospital, i was so distorted as to what i should do... until one of my lolas asked me to pack some clothes for my papa… I thought everything would be fine, because she asked me to bring those clothes for my papa’s recovery… but when I arrived at the hospital, I was so surprised when I saw my mom crying…. That was when I learned that nothing was okay….. until the time when the attendants asked for some medicine to be bought outside the hospital (by the way, the hospital is a cheap one… it lacks facilities and medicine, not to mention the incompetent employees)…. When the important medicine couldn’t be found, my father was sooo in pain and was dying…. Not so long, when he had his last breath….

what happened next??? of course my family and other relatives cried... i tried my best to be contain what i was feeling... i didnt want to let my family see me shedding tears... but when i heard my mama say "...sabihin mo sa kanila ayoko ng makakita ng mga BULAKLAK para sa papa mo..." that triggered me to do what i didnt want to do... i cried... but not as freely as what my emotion let me feel... i still tried to stop...... me and my siblings were there until the funeral home got the remains of papa from the hospital... then my siblings, w/ my tita, went out to buy barong for my papa.... i couldnt join becasue i went to the client soon after we arrived hom......

oh, btw, today is a special day for me...... so absuird.... haaaay.....

an unusually long weekend....

Last weekend was longer than my usual weekends. I got back to work Saturday night after three consecutive nights of not coming to work because of flu. Incidentally, RL himself had his own “post-Galera sickness” (more on this in the future…) and we hadn’t seen each other for a week a week until last Saturday (yup, we were both bumming around at the time this blog was created! Hehehe).
Our shift that night was particularly looooooooooong. And, I mean, literally, being on the 9pm-8am. The last thing I had in mind after I got off from work was to have breakfast as I was really tired then and I wanted to have a really good sleep. But when the group of my team leads invited me for breakfast to a place somewhere in Mandaluyong where we could do videoke-singing, I didn’t hesitate to come along. I just had iced tea (er, just cold tea, actually) and fries (the others had “breakfast”) and the rest was history.
Before we left that place, I received a text from a “FFRIEND” and I ended up having a date ‘til 4pm. Yeah right, I should’ve been tired to last that long. But, it’s not everyday that I get to spend half of my day with a hot guy. So, might as well make the most of it!
Well, if that’s not enough, I came home with my dad waiting for me to accompany him see his friend whom he hadn’t seen for 18 years.
The end result? I put on my facial cream at 1 am on Monday morning before taking a rest after that long weekend…

a not-so-usual day...

yesterday... was it a good day? hmmm... well, all i can say is it was not a very usual day for me... i was bombarded by three important matters that concern me...
first was this extra income thingy, my sideline… hehehe... actually, this opportunity comes rarely, so m so glad to have heard from them!!! imagine, i would be working for just a day in exchange for, say, 5 months of my regular salary?! hehehe... but of course, there were these demands, which were pressuring me… those made me weary and restless… I had to look for those particular stuff that they were requiring me to have… sigh… anyway, at least, I knew I would be a rewarding compensation…
second was regarding my vanity... hehehe… i would be charged, from then on, for those services, which was so much for free before... and charges for those services are so much!!! i couldn’t live w/o those, so i’ve no choice but to conform… sigh… oh well, it just proves everything has an end... hehehe...
third was my rest!!! i didn’t have enough sleep!!! i was so engrossed w/ the things I mentioned above!!! SLEEP is very important to me!!! hehehe…
so…… should i say yesterday was a good day for me? hehehe… RL

this blog is a product of mars and venus....

Rl and I "argue" most of the times about a lot of things under the sun. It's not that we love talking about our personal differences and biases. I'd rather say that we only do our best to enjoy the fact (or ist it?) that "Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus." And, yes, learn from them, too (i.e., from our never-ending discourses). And, we have created this blog to publish our insights about any conceivable topic we could think of-- no matter how weird or irrational they may seem to be. We may have opposing viewpoints at times (or should I say most of the times..?). But, it is that kind of "diversity", so to speak, that will --hopefully-- make this blog exciting and fun! -Rojan-

starting up...

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